this is a small place i made to keep what i can’t let go of.

things i loved. things i made. things i finished, and things i killed before they could grow. m.i.l.k. — memories i’ve loved and killed — is a slow archive of daily fragments, animations, songs, software, and the residue of what i was up to.

stay as long as you’d like.

who

i’m nicole. i live in hawai’i. i make 3d things and slow songs, write narrative horror, and tend three larger projects. i answer letters slowly.

i grew up making things and that hasn’t stopped. i sculpt creatures, paint digitally, sing into a little orange machine, and write code on quiet mornings. i’m trained in 3d modeling and digital painting; the rest i’m teaching myself as i go.

what lives here

milk is organized by mood, not by medium. each section holds a different kind of keeping:

• journal — slow notes, dev logs, small reflections. the closest thing to a blog.
• looking — a gallery of 3d things, paintings, wigglegrams, and small visual moments.
• songing — slow songs, lullabies, covers, making-of videos.
• playing — small interactive things. games. toys. trainers. demos.
• tending — the larger projects i’m still building. slower clocks than journal posts.

what i’m tending

three larger projects that move at their own pace:

• ünflat — a soft little 3d studio you can hold. touch-first low-poly modeling for ipad.
• die awake: sleep study — a slow horror set in a sleep clinic that won’t end.
• static hill — horror shorts shot through a real crt.

each has its own page in tending, updated when there’s something to say.

how to reach me

• email — [email protected]
• bluesky — @yeehawtech
• the guestbook on this site (/visitors/) — leave a note, slow or quick

i answer letters slowly. expect days, not hours.

colophon

milk is built by hand with:

• astro — static site generator
• pixelify sans — the pixel body font, by stefie justprince
• pf pixelscript — the script display font, by parachute fonts
• the dark palette is borrowed from a cross-stitch calendar my grandmother kept

source code lives on github (eventually). the design is bespoke and not generated.

kept by hand, with love.